| you'd think after a year in a different country, and a week in a different state, i'd be okay, but i still need a break. i'm sorry i haven't been able to catch up with anyone, until i finish catching up with my family first and foremost.
jo's coming tomorrow, well, in like 10 hours. it'll be like a philippines mini reunion celebrated at Goldilocks or something. i'm excited, maybe i'll get my processing time that I've been needing because we'll all (well some of us) will be together again like old times.
weird, how some things that were so important before, aren't anymore. i think i just freak out too much. i need to just lay back and relax. if things don't work out as planned, that's okay. i'm so obsessive compulsive to schedules, that the one time when i didn't have a cell phone or clock when i first arrived in the philippines is when i felt free. i just don't wanna fall in the same trap again of routine. i want every day to be spontaneous, but when other people are taken to account, like not leaving my mom. is when i get held back. which is okay, family first.
"We make plans, God laughs" |
o well, at least, i'm almost ready to catch up. almost.